The hardest thing that you can ever do is take a hard look at yourself. Do you know who you are? Do you know what you were designed to do? When I was a little girl, I think that I knew. I loved to sing, dance, read, draw, write, teach, and daydream. That was me. These things made me feel FREE and gave me JOY! Then, life got in the way.
From a young age I became a caretaker. At nine years old, I was supervising toddlers outside while they were playing. I did not want to do this, but for SURVIVAL reasons, I did. I would have to give them my toys, knowing there was a chance that they would be broken. Did I mention that whatever they did wrong was my fault? “Why are they crying”? “What did you do to them”? Needless to say, I lived a life of SACRIFICE.
Unfortunately, learning to put your thoughts and feelings last at such an early age, has a HUGE impact on your life for years to come. My result, is that I lost sense of self and confidence. I could not answer any of the very questions that I posed in the beginning of this post.
However, through all of my uncertainty, I keep going. There is something inside of me that knows there is a light at the end of my tunnel. This knowing has fueled me to keep on the journey to self-actualization. In so many words this means to know my talents and gifts, so that I can reach my fullest potential. In sum, I aim to feel FULFILLED.